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Been listening to Robert Smith, again

I started listening to Robert Smith again yesterday, I've decided that I am going to buy one of his training programs. His latest videos on YouTube are more insightful and current, I like them more than the earliest ones, but they're all good material.

It's interesting that I have come back to where I started - EFT.

I feel drawn to EFT as a why to help others.

Gandhi said "To find yourself, lose yourself in the service of others".

So true.

Having fun today

Today is a day just for fun. After spending three days listening to motivational this and motivational that, I am plumb tuckered out and need a play day.

So this is it!

Going back to mend hurts

After spending the day listening to Burt Goldman's Quantum Jump audios and doing the visualizations, I did something that may seem pretty strange but, if time is a loop, forward and backward and has no end or no start, why couldn't I go back to a time in my life and offer healing at the point of trauma?

I had heard of a kind of healing, Reiki I think it was, which states that one can send back healing to a specific time, and also, Robert Smith (YouTube's HealingMagic channel) does a healing EFT where he gets the person to send back in time, healing to a trauma.

My thinking when I did this was to lessen the trauma of the 13 year old I once was and to tell her that despite what was about to happen, it was not her fault and that people were going to use it to hurt her and punish her, but that she was still loved, and not damaged and that I would be there for her throughout the ordeal.

What was very strange, is I remember, back then, a voice telling me to just let it happen, not fight it and I would be ok after. I started to cry as I felt that I (in the now)  had been there that night, I held her hand and had her focus on me, and I told her exactly what I remember hearing at 13 years old, 32 years ago (but forgot) - isn't that just amazing?

I will see, over the next while, if "stuff" starts to change.

Change one thing and everything changes - right?

Incredible visualizations!

I've never been good at meditating, my mind always goes off - maybe it's ADD or something (boredom perhaps) but I was able to hold the meditation of each of the ones on Quantum Jumping, I even found that they weren't long enough.

I had great experiences and results from them.

I know when I started reading the info on the site I was thinking "parallel universes" - right!

But I kept listening and he describes it as a kind of controlled daydreaming where a person enters their imagination and converses with another self that already has the skill, or outcome that they want in the current reality. I felt completely in control (in the now) when I went to these other places and spoke with another version of me who was already successful, abundant, and living the life I want for myself. It actually did not feel weird at all.

I just felt relaxed and open minded during the process and observed what has already taken place in another version of me.

I like this kind of visualization as I am the one creating the reality that I am looking at and ultimately creating.

Mike Dooley says "focus on the end result", this kind of visualization is all about the end result. Just don't go to an alternate reality where you are homeless! :)  

Quantum jumping.

Ever hear of Burt Goldman?

I didn't until a few days ago, when the link to his page www.quantumjumping.com kept popping up nearly on every video on YouTube. I finally clicked on it have spent the better part of the day reading his site, watching his videos and finally downloading his program.

I started listening to the program and  participated in my first jump. The concept is based on unlimited parallel universes where we exist in any level or degree from our current reality and that we can access the energy of that doppleganger and bring it back to our current reality. 

I went to a place where I (the other me) am happy, successful and not looking worse for wear (based on the life I've had), I looked content and I was living in a nice place surrounded by green lawns, etc.

It felt real enough, the smell of the grass and the smell of the nearby water, not to mention the breeze I felt as I walked around.

Sound crazy? No, just a type of alpha meditation / visualization. It felt great. I felt happy. I even felt wealthy.

The Water Crystals of Masaru Emoto

I watched a documentary yesterday called "What the bleep do we know" and it is about quantum psychics and alternate universes and thought control and such, and I was intrigued by an experiment by a Japanese scientist Masaru Emoto that he conducted with drops of water and how our thoughts can affect how water freezes.
One line in the movie (spoken by Quark actor Zimmerman) resonated with me "If our thoughts can do that to water, imagine what our thoughts do to our bodies". Indeed!

http://www.unitedearth.com.au/watercrystals.html

Love Energy Source - Music by Scott Raposa

Another beautiful song by amazing composer Scott Raposa that gives me chills, especially when listened to with stereo headphones.

I was moved to add pictures to this song as well.  Enjoy!

Vibrational Beings - Music by Scott Raposa

After I got the CD from Scott Raposa, I felt that I needed to put pictures to a song or two. I listen to the music everyday, sometimes twice or more. It moves me, uplifts me and gets me in the vortex! (LOL)

Here is one of those videos I put together to the song Vibrational Beings.

A small blissful pleasure

Crema coffee!

Yep.

But what does that have to do with manifesting the life I want - you say.

I discovered Crema coffee last year at a friends house. It is D-E-L-I-C-I-O-U-S-! She had a Tassimo machine and when I went to visit I always asked for a Crema. I eventually bought my own Tassimo machine and I get to have a Crema anytime I want.

It is a flavourful, creamy capped coffee that makes me feel blissful as I drink it. I look forward to it all day, I save it for coming home rather than the morning.

It is becoming a ritual that I look forward to to put the cherry on my day. It is manifesting what I want in life.  The key words here are: what I want.

No other coffee gives me what this Crema coffee does, bliss!

This is the machine I bought for myself.

The "The Secret" challenge

I almost forgot to add an update on the 30 day challenge of watching The Secret everyday.
It has launched me in new directions that have left me in absolute awe that I can hardly believe it!

From watching that movie, I found Ester Hicks and the Teachings of Abraham, I found Mike Dooley and the Notes From The Universe, Scott Raposa and his wonderful music - just to name a few.

Most importantly, I found ME again, and in ways that I didn't know I was lacking. These realizations are coming upon me like great waves of emotions and healing and the absolute gratitude and appreciation I am experiencing is overwhelmingly mind-blowing.

I have tremendous hope again, I have incredible compassion, not just for others but for me as well.

My journey has been long and winding and almost backtracking at times, but these teachings I have come upon over the last 6 weeks or so have taken me by storm and surprise and shock and awe and amazement and joy and wonderment and  have caused me to grow in ways that I didn't know were capable.

But most importantly, I found forgiveness. For me, others and for life.

I am a wonderful creation and I know it now!

Woohoo!   

Notes From the Universe - Mike Dooley

Wow!

I started reading the book at Starbuck's yesterday afternoon and I had to stop reading it. I was getting all emotional.

When I got home, I started to read it again and I was bawling my eyes out form gratitude and awe that every page I turned to was exactly what I needed to read and had an answer of what I was looking for.

How does that happen? LAW OF ATTRACTION! That's how. I have found that when I have a question or I am confused about, I start to get answers from the unlikeliest places.

That is what is so amazing.

Aaaahhhh.

Thank you Universe.

Grateful to tears!

I was coming home from doing groceries and as I was coming up the street, I saw a neighbour walking his dog. I honked and waved, he waved back. I was thinking that just one year ago, that would have been unheard of.
A year ago I was just starting to come out of a decade long illness and I was beat up and tired and lifeless.

When I moved in one year ago, he was the first neighbour that said hello and has consistently been neighbourly. I love his mastiff dog and whenever I am outside and they are there, I stop to talk and pet this big teddy bear that looks like she could rip out your throat (appearances can be deceiving).

So as I waved and smiled at the acknowledgment of how far I have come in one year and in learning about appreciation and gratitude when I found LOA, I got quite emotional and teary eyed and had to acknowledge just how happy I was in that moment and how happy overall I have been over the last 6 weeks or so.

I never thought I would ever thank God for anything, and here I am appreciating everything that has come into my life thus far (even the bad stuff).

I love how I feel when I am grateful and appreciative. It is better than any high I ever got on pot! And I am not exaggerating. This high is real and long lasting and caused by me and Source.

Life really is a miracle!

Activating what we think

I saw the best example of activating thoughts into action today and I had to share it here.

I have a colleague, she is extremely negative and very stressed. She spends her days loudly complaining and saying things like "if it can go wrong, it will go wrong for me" and "I knew this was going to go wrong, everything goes wrong for me".

I hear this all day, everyday. And usually I have to force myself to ignore her or leave the area just to clear my energy. But today, as she was repeating this mantra, I had this very neutral thought that she attracts into her life exactly what she doesn't want, and then rewards it when it shows up by constantly stroking it.

I said to her as I was leaving for the day and she wanted to vent her frustration "I have to be honest with you, I do not envy you one iota, all that stress. I hope you find a way."
And then I wished her well at her meeting first thing tomorrow and her reply was "I doubt this meeting will be a good one, they never are".

And with an active calling to that end result, I can see why she thinks that way.

So what happened??

I went to a Success Master Mind group tonight,

I went with an open mind and eagerly did the exercises with all the blunt honesty that I could muster - after all, all I had to loose was previous beliefs right?

One exercise had us identify what we want in life from 7 different categories. I listed all of mine as I had been working on this for 6 weeks. And I'm feeling great, spiritual, and positive.

I was gung-ho until the instructor started reading from the Tao, and I got very upset.

He's reading that the ego is what wants material things and that to have true happiness we must put ourselves last and live for the service of others and all we need will be given us, and that the ego is never satisfied and wants more and more.

I started to challenge that and as people started to try to quiet me down, instructor included, I was getting more and more mad that they were saying I was one thing when I knew in my heart that I wasn't that way.

One guy actually told me that anger serves no purpose but to injure the person who feels it and I told him "sure if you live in it all the time, but anger serves as a catapult and moves people into action. Anger is step up the chain of emotions from depression, rage and spurs people into frustration and hope and eventually happiness and joy." He didn't like that.

So, I let it go eventually and decided that I will not focus on that but rather on the peaceful and spiritual feelings I do feel when I am asking and knowing the Universe is delivering.

I will not be going back as the focus of the group is not to spur success but to get people to believe in upsetting conflicting beliefs.

I spoke with a few ladies after the group and many wanted to comfort me because I was (so) angry, but what they didn't know is that I released the anger right after I decided that I didn't like feeling it and no longer needed external soothing. I had it all along. I manifested my own soothing and embraced the anger within once I acknowledged it.
And I also am quite observing that the mood of that group is not one of manifesting success but to stir up controversy, which is not where I want to spend my energy.

So, now what? What is my next adventure? Come on world, I'm ready for another lesson. I'm strong enough to take it.

Whatcha got!?

What inspirational music!!!!

I first came across the music of Scott Raposa when I first stumbled on this YouTube video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7je1ykX9Op4

and then I went to Scott's site and listened to the tracks for the LOA Directly from Source album and then I ordered it!

I just got it and put it into my laptop and WOW! what an album! Ester Hicks' voice, coupled with this unique blend of sounds and music is hypnotic, energizing and (dare I say) sensual at times! But very INSPIRATIONAL!!! I've made a copy for my MP3 player, I have a copy on my laptop and I keep the CD in the car.

You gotta get this album!

I knew eventually I'd do it!

In order to keep attracting good into one's life, one has to think good thoughts and have good feelings the majority of the time.

But, when people around you aren't doing that and are rather negative and subconsciously sucking all of the energy out of you, what do you do?

Well, I've been dealing with that very "contrast**"

Following the words of Abraham-Hicks, "reach for a better feeling thought". Uh-huh.

Since I started living the law of attraction, while at work, that has been a HUGE contrast for me, listening to (or just being around) this particular person sucks the living energy right out and I feel really bad.
So, also according to Abraham-Hicks and other LOA teachers, my feeling bad is me allowing myself to feel bad by not allowing good feelings. Following me so far?

All last week, this person has been away on course so I wasn't exposed for 8 hours a day as I usually am, and I must have built up my "allowing" muscle, because today, when it started to get negative, I closed my eyes, gathered all the "appreciation" for this person I could and said internally "I really appreciate this persons attention to detail" and I listened to an upbeat and inspirational bit of music and TADAH! I allowed myself to feel good despite what was going on around me.

Now, I realize that this might sound like a tiny step, just ignore and tune out - right? wrong, I let this person be who they are and I let myself feel appreciation rather than annoyance - that is the HUGE shift I'm talking about.

Since I decided to live LOA rather than just "feel" it (there is a difference), I feel more and more in the abundance I am creating. After all, today is the manifestation of yesterday.  


"every failure brings with it the seed of an equivalent advantage" Napoleon Hill - TAGR
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** We do not have problems, we have contrast.

I did what would have been the impossible, once upon a time!!!

Yep!

I did today what would have sent me into a major panic attack, not too long ago.

I hosted a public event that had me conversing with about 50 people and although my previous self was actually trying to convince me to do something else instead, I went anyway and walked through the fear and anxiety and insecurity to get closer to my ultimate goal - public speaking.

And I survived! phew!

But most importantly, I had fun.  Yes, actual bonafide fun.

Amazing right?

Woohoo!

Started working on my Big Wonderful Book of Dreams, Desires and Manifestations

I was listening to Mike Dooley (author of Notes From The Universe) and he talks about how he has used manifestation books to visualize what he wants, and although he is famous and has the life he wants, he still has an active book.

So I went out and got ink for the printer, a blank book with a nice cover and a glue stick, and started printing what I want to attract in my life, all the while listening to Abraham-Hicks' CD In The Vortex.

I will review the book daily as Mike does, and add to it as I think of other wonderful things I want to attract.

My dogs are in there, my house, my cottage, my car, my trips to other countries, and soon I'll add my career and relationships.

It felt good when I was adding things to it and imagining having them. Like Mike says "Focus on the end results and let the Universe figure out how to make it happen".

Ok, then! On we go!

Am I doing this right?

It seems to me that after I have a deep connection experience to my Source, the next day or so I feel drained and almost blah, neutral, exhausted and rested.

Which leads me to ask - Am I doing this right?

Science of Getting Rich and Law of Attraction

I've been listening to the Science of Getting Rich in audio format and listening to Abraham-Hicks and now Mike Dooley and they all say the same thing.

What I find amazing is that the Science of getting rich was written so many year ago my a man long dead and the message is the same.
Think positive thoughts.
Visualize what you want.
Get in line with it.
And don't focus on your current situation.

And Source/Divine/God will provide for you.

What I don't get however, is if this information has been around for many decades (10 or more) why is this concept still considered new age and touchy-feely woo-woo stuff?

There are so many similarities when I compare all three, so much so that all three are versions of each other, it's just the language is slightly different.

Isn't it amazing?

Mike Dooley and your EGS

OMG!!!! I am watching a talk Mike Dooley gave as part of his book tour (feb/11) and he just said something that just blew my mind!!!

First, let me say that Mike is a believer of visualizing the end result as the Universe will  figure out how to get you there.

Ok, now he is talking about how cars nowadays have GPS installed and when you get in your car, you tell it your end result and it figures everything else for you. It'll calculate the speed, direction, any detours ahead, etc. You just need to get behind the wheel and tell it where you want to be and it'll get you there.

That just hit me, like the EGS (emotional guidance system) that Abraham-Hicks talks about, it is your GPS for life and your desires.

Isn't that amazing!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AWC4F-3MEJM&feature=related start here and watch all 4 parts.

Still have lots more shifting to do....

It seems that when I have shifts in thinking, feeling, vibration (et al), I get to feeling blah (neutral) and think that this is it for me. I have incredible shifts for a few days in a row, I'll reach deep down and pull out truth and healing and think, there can't be anymore and feel rather blah... This happened this last weekend. All week prior, I had been shifting and healing and adjusting and here comes the weekend and I feel emotionally drained and feel that there couldn't be anymore to reach.

Ha! Yesterday, I am listening to Abraham-Hicks and not feeling the vibration, and I am following the videos appearing on the right in Youtube and I click on one and it starts to pull at my heart, and then another and I'm bawling my eyes out and I'm shifting all over the place. And in my mind I'm asking a question and that gets answered later in the video or in the next video. It felt as though I was being led along video after video and I'm releasing more and more resistance.

I remember an earlier video that Abraham-Hicks talks about crying and how it is mostly a release of resistance and an adjustment of vibration as resistance is being released. That was good to hear as I was starting to wonder what exactly was going on with me as I am releasing a lot of  tears that are mixed with laughter and joy and appreciation and gratitude.  It's like I have this question that I am not fully aware that I have and then -WHAM!- an answer is given to me and I am so grateful to be given this information and end up so excited thanking Source for bestowing on me this very knowledge.

I hope I never run out of shift!

April 7th will be 30 days since The Secret changed everything!

When I started doing the The Secret challenge, I knew that something would change but I didn't know to what extent.  I couldn't wait another 5 days for an update.

One of the LOA believers that I discovered is Abraham-Hicks.  Initially, her speaking in terms of "We" rather than "I" was a little off I thought, but after a few times of watching the movie, and liking what she was saying, I looked her up on the internet. When I initially discovered that she channels a group of formless energy known as Abraham, I thought it was a little weird.  But because what she says is not aggressive and she does not pontificate, I felt safe to listen more. I started to watch clips on youtube and then I downloaded the meditation CD into the Vortex. I listen to it at work and I have had moments of intense resonance. Listening to her words on youtube and on her site, I have had more moments of resonance. 

Although I initially found her through EFT, I think now that if I hadn't had small, non threatening shifts by using EFT, I would not have been open enough to allow the teachings of Abraham-Hicks.

I have always had a problem with religion, especially the Catholic religion, and anytime something came close to sounding like rules, or sin, or salvation, or judgment, I would run as fast as I could. But these teachings are not religious based, they are not judgmental,  they do not force a doctrine that is impossible to follow and cause people to fear life and all that it offers.

These teachings have caused me to shift in the direction of positive energy and allowed me to find my truth and love it! I am grateful, I am loving, I am in awe and I am eager to see how else I am going to manifest more gratitude and love into my life. 

I know that these teachings can seem rather scary to many, but they are not. There is nothing but love for those who seek the truth.

Resonance

I've been reading alot on LOA (both the Science of Getting Rich and Ask and it is Given) and I've had moments of deep resonance where I feel a truth erupt, one that I always knew but had forgotten that I knew and then a cleansing of the truth followed by a settling of that truth. 

Until last night, I didn't know the word to describe these events that were happening to me, but after listening to Abraham-Hicks yesterday talk to a young man who described what I have been experiencing lately, she called it Resonance and it felt like the truth. Of course, I erupted into emotion and allowed the tears to wash over me and I felt elated and joyful!  To know that I have known something my whole life and be made aware that I knew it feels incredibly like coming home. What amazes me even more is that I have flashes of this knowing going back my whole life and for whatever reason, safety perhaps, I disallowed this knowledge where it has become evident to me now that I have always had this awareness but there is no anger that I had disallowed it or that it was disallowed for me. Just joy that I now have access to it.

When I got home last night, I started watching Youtube videos of talks that Abarham-Hicks has given over the years (as I do most nights) and these words she speaks are profound and enlightening and loving and I get very emotional as they resonate within me. I feel that I am in the presence of my destiny (does that make sense?) and I laugh and cry and give thanks and am grateful all wrapped into one body (and it feels powerful). I am listening to one in particular and as I start to feel the truth resonate, the lights go out and I say out loud to the Source energy "Have you always been with me?"   and I felt profoundly grateful that although I had disallowed my truth from being, I felt grateful that Source had always been there by my side until I could turn to it and allow it again. Even now as I recall this event from last night, I am emotional with gratitude.

Allowing Source to resonate within me has changed me and I am becoming as I allow and I am grateful, humble and  giddy to know that this is available to me and to anyone willing to become and allow and be grateful, humble and giddy.

Source energy is who I am, and I am grateful!

Dr Wayne Dyer rocks!

I subscribe to his twitter account and I had to blog about this one retweet of his "Leave your reputation for others to debate; it has nothing to do with you."  It is similar to another saying "What people think about me is none of my business".

How true that is. To me, that speaks of "no matter how hard I might try to please someone, they will think what they will of me."

People who aren't aware/awake live in their fears and insecurities and will always find a reason to hate/dislike/judge/criticize others because they are in so much pain themselves and they need someone onto whom they can project what they feel. It is not normal to feel these things about oneself so they project thinking that it is the external person making them feel this way, or act that way or think whatever.

What I am learning as I read and listen to Abraham-Hicks and other wonderful awake/aware beings is that wasted energy spent on trying to show others you are not what they believe you are is wasted energy and can never be regained. So let them be where they need to be and keep driving your life forward since you're the one who knows the truth about yourself best.

My inner child is happy!

I stopped at McDonald's before doing a grocery tonight, not because I eat at McD's often, but because it was close and on the way to Loblaws. I ordered what I usually order on my yearly visit there, a cheeseburger happy meal with Mac sauce. 
The toy was a Littlest Petshop toy. I thought it was a kitten, but it was a pink girlie skunk, awww!

So, I get my meal in the little cardboard box, with the arches for handles, and I walk to my table holding my happy meal and I am happy. It feel even more happy when I realize that the little skunk is a bobblehead and I'm tapping the head so it bounces and I apply the little flowers to decorate my little toy.

Even though they forgot to add the Mac sauce, I was eating my happy meal and playing with my  toy and enjoying myself, I felt silly and happy and giddy and in my skin. It didn't matter if others were looking at me, and it didn't matter if they even had a thought about this grown 40 something woman, alone, eating her happy meal and tapping on the little bobble head and beaming!

I felt 10 years old inside and it felt wonderful!

Letting go and releasing the past

I decided that I would delete all previous post as they were ghosts of the past. One cannot focus on moving forward when there is negative energy holding us back, which this blog did.
I released all the posts about my previous reality so that my current reality and the one that I am moving forward to could have all of my energy and focus.

Project Manifestation Now!

Emotional Guidance System (EGS)

I have been listening to Abraham-Hicks lately and I started to read "Ask And It Is Given". Amazing stuff!
I have also been listening to a recorded version of "The Science Of Getting Rich" as read by Brad Yates and what uplifting information it all is. I have found that what Abraham-Hicks is very similar to what Napolean Hill says in his book "The Science Of Getting Rich", and also what other LOA believers say.
It amazes me that a man born in the 1800's was talking about this LOA stuff way before Ester Hicks was, and before Brad Yates and even before Bob Proctor.

I like the concept of the EGS. There are really only two types of feelings: good or bad. I understand that. Either you feel goods of you feel bad. I ask myself, does this feel good? Yes? Then keep doing it. If it doesn't, then do something else.

I've been having these spiritual moments over the last month and it feels amazing. Sometimes I start to feel scared, or not deserving of these experiences or that they aren't real, but then I catch myself and allow myself to trust what is happening and feel joyful.

Amazing what has been happening since I started watching The Secret nearly one month ago.

Truly amazing! 

So much to learn

It seems that everywhere I turn, I am met with someone who has the answer or solution or course to what I am searching for and their material is worded in a way that implies if you don't buy their "stuff" then you're not really serious about taking the next step.

I can see that many people are in this alternative and self help field because it is a racket for them, in it for the quick cash that desperate people hand over, but I have made a decision that I will review their "stuff" and if it sets off any guilt or urgency "time is running out" feeling, then I will pass it up. I figure if their "stuff" truly is intended with love and healing, it will be available as a constant and not be used to make people feel bad if they don't buy it.

So, that aside, I have been watching The Secret (30 day challenge), I have started to watch videos of Abraham-Hicks and listening to web based teleconferences with great people who all have their version of self help, manifesting wealth and achieving optimum code. I still listen to Brad Yates in the morning, I am still studying Robert Smith and I am still wanting to help others with EFT. I am however, placing myself first in this process. 

I have intended to the universe my desires and I am following the breadcrumbs, where ever they may lead. This is exciting!

Forgiveness

Today, Samira Daoud was sentenced to 6 years in jail for killing 16-year-old Alex Hayes. She was drunk, on a suspended license and she was so drunk, she didn't even know she struck someone. Alex died, alone in a ditch, broken and alone.

When I first read this story before Christmas, my first thoughts and feelings were of rage, hatred and revenge. Especially when I read that she had already been convicted of driving under the influence and she continued to drive on a suspended license.

Today, as I read the sentence, I felt nothing but compassion for Samira Daoud as well as for the family of Alex Hayes. I mentally gathered all the compassion and forgiveness I could muster inside myself and sent it to her and to the families on both sides. It is not easy for either side to deal with this loss.

Is what she did forgivable? She will need to forgive herself in order to survive. If some of the stories that she survived are true, she is living a nightmare locked inside of her and she is her own jailer.

Alex Hayes' family, need to forgive in order to honour Alex' life and not focus on the last few hours of his life and its horrendous, unfair and despicable end.  Alex is not his death or the way he died. He was a vibrant and fun-loving teenager from what I read.  In order for his family to not live in the same hell that Ms Daoud lives in, forgiveness is what will allow them to move past the pain and into happy memories of their beloved Alex.

I understand that the pain is still fresh and that no matter what the sentence was, it would not have been enough and cannot bring Alex back. It could have been 10 years, or 25 or life in prisons, it still wouldn't have been enough. Ms Daoud will punish herself more than anyone can ever know or understand. You see, she had a sister killed by a drunk driver, and the pain of that caused her to become what she hated the most.

Ms Daoud has received a life sentence, in her mind and spirit, she is suffering.

Even the most evil of humans deserve forgiveness and it is not for us to deny them that right.

There will be no healing without forgiveness. For anyone.

Pain is a gift

I was sitting on the bus on my way home and I started to mentally tap on my neck pain. I had a car accident in 1991 and my car was totaled, but I walked away but I've had severe neck pain that flares up depending on the stress in my life, and if I maintain a certain position with my arm (at the keyboard using the mouse a lot) and riding a bike (which I haven't done since 1992).

So, I've got my eyes closed and remembering what Robert Smith says, pain is an emotion manifested physically in the body. So I'm tapping away "I choose to release this pain and whatever it represents" (I can't associate a feeling with it) so I'm repeating this mantra and then I add  "I'm open and willing to find out what it represents" and I'm tapping mentally, and I get this sense of calm (this is the part I love!).

Then I realize that pain has has been the point where my body screams that I can't keep doing what I'm doing, change something (position, stop doing that, do this instead) since I have learned to ignore my internal voice - physical pain seems to be the only way I will acknowledge what is happening. And, when I haven't listened to the initial pain, my body amped it up until it shut down.

In 2005, I had been ignoring the depression that was creeping in since 1999, I kept working in a job that I absolutely hated and brought me nothing but stress, panic attacks and nightmares and a burn out. When I had started to feel more anxious AND didn't stop/change/or do something else, my body gave me migraines. One day I woke up, one month before my 40th birthday, with severe migraines. I still hadn't learned my lesson, so the migraines got worse and I ended up in the ER three times over the next month. Then the nausea kicked in, lights and sounds made me sicker (scents and odours would bring on instant migraines and severe nausea), until I accepted time off. I still didn't change/stop/do something else just yet.

I actually went back to that job but I started to look for something else. By a comedy of errors, I ended up resigning and tried to take it back but they refused to let me back. THANK GOD!!!!!

For the next three months, I stayed unemployed and got a little better. The migraines started to calm down, light didn't hurt my eyes so much although scents (perfumes, colognes) would still bother me (like air being sucked out of the room).
I took a contract which lasted for two years in an office environment and I got better and less sick.

Did I learn my lesson about working in an environment that had made me so sick initially? OF COURSE NOT! I took a job back into the previous environment (because the money was great and it was a foot in the door to the federal government) and what had taken me years to become so sick, started happening within one year of the new job.  I had a severe burn out and lung infections, and migraines and asthma attacks and panic attacks and then other physical things started to happen (dislocated hip) until I was forced to go back off work.

All this to say that my body produced pain to stop me as I wasn't listening to the initial signs that what I was doing wasn't working and I needed to stop doing those things.

You see, growing up, any weakness was shameful. I saw my mother with the same attitude end up in a psych ward and when she didn't clue into that, a major heart attack, and when that didn't get her attention, another heart attack and eventually three heart bi-passes and then total illness and permanent disability.

So pain has been a gift to me and I hadn't noticed until today.

Gratitude doesn't begin to describe how I feel about pain right now.

I honour pain, it has been my most caring friend.

Tapping on money issues

I bought the 6 month tapping into wealth program by Margaret Lynch, and today I listened to week 2. The exercise was identifying financial trauma, I listed the biggest one I had. My ex-husband not paying his child support for more than 12 years. I had to chase him down, sneakily find out from my son if he was working and where so I could notify the family responsibility office of where he was, since they were back logged with dead beat parents, it would take them a year to find him and by then he would be long gone.
A lot of my anger about money then was that he was greedy and vengeful and hurt his child by withholding money meant to help raise his child. So for 12 years, my anger and rage kept me going. Never giving up on finding him and getting the money was due his child. During those years, I felt very stressed about money and where it would come from and I made some stupid decisions to try to make more money and ended up losing the money in MLM, pyramid and other get-rich-quick programs out there.

As I was tapping along to this protocol that Margaret was speaking, I got upset even though I thought I had let it go, but I also started to see him in a different light. I started to see as a small, petty, powerless man that was only reacting to having his child moved out of the province and his access gone. His only way to maintain some control in an otherwise powerless situation was to withhold money and lash out at me.

So, as I tapped, I started to see him as a fragile human being and I started to acknowledge his humanness and the anger started to dissipate.

Wonderful stuff this tapping!

Emotionally Focused Transformation

When I heard Robert Smith say that in one of his videos, I knew that I had to do this!!!

I posted a video to Youtube setting my intentions to the Universe that what I want to do is take this gift to people and help them the way EFT has helped me (and continues to help me). 

By addressing the emotions, people can transform their lives. I'm doing, hundreds of others are doing and reaping the benefits of transforming their lives for the better.

Negative axioms

This is interesting. About a week ago I started to incorporate into my tapping scripts "Release all negative axioms that hold you down..." not sure where I got that saying actually, but it felt good to say it.

This afternoon I am doing my weekly grocery shopping and I am scanning the magazine isle (which I normally don't do) as I had this little voice nudging me to get something new to read. The magazines on prominent display are stuff I don't really care about, but a muscle magazine with a younger Arnold Schwarzenegger stops me. I look at it and put it back.  Then I look on the bottom shelf, and way at the back I see a magazine called Wirework.  I've never seen this magazine, didn't know it existed and I sure wasn't looking for it, but one of the headlines on the cover grabbed my attention. So in the cart it goes.

I get home, relax with a coffee and open the magazine to do an initial scan. I get to page 14 and start reading the article which begins with "Negative axioms - ", I got chills just reading it. I kept on reading, ..."statements or ideas that people accept as fact."  OMG!

My whole childhood my mother (and older sister) told me that I just wasn't creative, not like my sisters who can draw, they said that I wasn't any good and anytime that I did try, my work was ridiculed, dismissed and tossed in the trash.

I couldn't believe that I would be re-affirmed in my beliefs to change myself from a wire jewelery magazine! I've had an interest in it for a long time, I've even studied it on Youtube but I had that little nagging voice telling me I wasn't creative and wouldn't be able to make these beautiful pieces of jewelry.  

This just goes to show me that once I intended to the universe my desire to change my beliefs about me and my reality, that truths would start to emerge to show me who I really am and what it possible. 

Amazing!

Day 5 of The Secret

This is day 5 of watching the secret and I am understanding things at a different level. I sit there with a pen and notebook and write down things that strike me. I intended my EFT healing business and I got an answer a few minutes later about advertising it in this new age alternative monthly magazine that comes out here.

I am still learning EFT but now I feel that I have a more structured plan on how to manifest clients that need to work with me.

I am going to intend how I will know I am ready to take clients, but for now, I am content with being in this feeling of gratitude.

Reverend Doctor Michael Beckwith (one of the speakers in the movie), I just think he is phenomenal and speaks a honest passion that I find so attractive, physically, mentally, spiritually. I intend to meet him in person, he is one of the 6 people I would want to have time with in my life. I believe being in his presence, hearing him talk to me would be a spiritual experience.

Inner happiness is the fuel of success.

Tapping remotely

As I've watched Robert Smith on Youtube, I've come to learn that one can tap remotely for someone else. It's sometimes also called surrogate tapping.
The other morning I am sitting on the crowded bus going to work and a space next to me became free and this overweight woman squeezed herself in there.  When I saw that she was going to get herself in there, my judgments on fat people kicked in. I started to repeat in my head what I always repeat which just upsets me more. I won't repeat what those things are as they serve no purpose now.
Then Robert's words started to crowd out the stinkin' thinkin' and I heard "Her weight is a symptom of what she is experiencing inside herself. Some people cope by drinking, or gambling, or shopping, but she copes by eating. And her weight probably is used as a shield, to create barriers around her".

So, I started mentally tapping and sending her healing and forgiveness for herself. I did this over and over again until I calmed down. I did this for me more than for her. And if a little of it settles in her mind, perhaps she will act on any feelings that produced in her and start to heal herself.
 

Another update on the cat situation

The SPCA just called me and the cat has gotten worse, he is bleeding from the nose, mouth breathing and running a fewer.
So, they advised me they will put him to sleep.
Even though I actually only had the cat for 5 days, I bonded with it and gave it a name and loved it. Actually I started to love it when I found it one day on my stoop on one of the coldest days of December, and when I started to feed it, and getting it to trust me.

I feel responsible as it was my actions that brought him to the SPCA and eventually this moment of passing.

But I also comfort myself knowing that for his time here, he was loved and he lived like a spoiled house cat rather than a cold scared hungry abandoned cat.

RIP little Booda.

Update on the cat situation

If you read the post "Fill In The Blanks Thursday" then you'll know I was feeling quite bad about a foster cat that I had to bring back to the SPCA because I felt like I was traumatizing it (and me) as I couldn't give it the medicine it needed and I felt its health was getting worse.

Well, later that day, after I blogged about it, I got a call from the SPCA that since I was the original finder of the stray that I was still able to adopt him and did I want to.

Of course!!!

So, over the next few days he will get the medicine from trained veterinary technicians and he won't associate the event with me.

So some more good news for me!

Discovered EFT on February 24th...

It's been 15 days since I came across EFT.
Not sure how I stumbled on it, but I think I was lead to it like breadcrumbs to the gingerbread house. Except what I found wasn't a wicked old witch ready to imprison me and cook me, but rather I found myself.
I was the witch who had imprisoned myself and I was slowly being eaten alive with emotional suffering that had numbed me to point of surrendering "Is this all I get?"
Even after years of one on one therapy, and even with all the great strides I had made, I was still saying "Is this all I get?"
Now, after two weeks, I see that there is so much more to my experience and I am learning to soar above who I was and move towards what I was meant to be. ME.

In order to be ME, I've got to be FREE.

Emotional Freedom Techniques is doing that by releasing the past and freeing me to live, fearlessly.
 

Incredible healing with EFT

I am always amazed at the depth of healing I can go to and not feel afraid of feeling the feelings. I think it is the physical tapping that intercepts the descent into the feeling to access it and making it easier to release it (It's like going down a dark hole into darkness but you have a rope tied to your waist and you feel safe, whereas before I felt like I was falling into the abyss and was afraid of being engulfed and never returning).

I was tapping on money and clearing the blocks I have to it and stuff just started to tumble out. Stuff that I had been on the peripherals all the time and I was able to experience the event that traumatized me but I was also able to heal it by forgiving the person that had offended me and I was able to forgive myself for picking up where this person left off, one event I had been torturing myself emotionally for 32 years. I healed and sent the person forgiveness and love, the universal kind of love, the kind that all living things deserve. Even the most evil of people have a drop of humanness and by acknowledging that they are who they are because of damage that was done to them in their lives, I am able to forgive them their humanness.

If I am deserving of forgiveness, then they are too. We all are. Every last one of us.

If I say that someone is not deserving of forgiveness, then I am stating that I know what is best over that who knows more than I do and always will. If I say that someone doesn't deserve to be forgiven then I hold on to judgment which interferes with my ability to forgive which is essential for healing.

Forgiveness is not an admission that what was done to us is excusable,  but rather it is a release of the negative connection to that person so we can live our lives.

They will get what they ultimately deserve, forgiveness is not an absolution of their deeds, they will receive their punishment, it isn't for us to decide what that is. Forgiveness is something we do for ourselves so that we may let go of them and what they did. The memory is still there but the emotional charge that eats us alive isn't.

You don't forgive to release them, you forgive to release you.

What a wonderful day!!

I got up this morning and remembered to do my gratitude list while in the shower. Which lead to remembering the first time  I had stage fright (Christmas play where I played St Nick (only because I spoke french and this was a french part in an English play) and as I am to hand over the doll house to the "child", it falls apart and crashed to the floor, everyone laughs and I forget my line and I run off the stage in tears and completely humiliated - and I see my dad and step mom laughing too. That lead to me remember the time I was at the Miss Teen Pageant (provincial qualifier) and didn't get picked  to go to the semi final round and I ran off stage in tears and completely humiliated (I'm starting to see a pattern here). And then I started to flash back (or is that forward) to the times where I tried to speak publicly (at conventions and such) and got all panicky and  forgot what to say and my head spinning and heart pounding and and and ... So I tapped on it for several minutes, 10 I think, including forgiving those that laughed at me and forced me to do these things.
Then when I started to get dressed I decided to look at myself in the full length mirror and talk to myself the way I talk to my son, encouraging, loving, non judgemental, and tell myself I love me, then I started flashing on all the times men told me I was frigid, stupid, all the men who hurt me and abandoned me (starting with my dad of course, didn't he set the stage for my life after all?), so I tapped and tapped and forgave them and forgave myself and then I incorporated  some loving affirmations and looked myself in the eye and I saw the twinkle appear.    

Amazing stuff!

So my day has been amazing!

Robert Smith HealingMAGIK

I've been watching his videos on Youtube (in order) and there are 379 of them, and I am going through so much stuff just going along with his sessions. What a lot of releasing I am doing.

It's amazing stuff.

Fill In the Blank Thursday

I saw this on un-blog-evable.blogspot and decided I would "borrow" it

1. I am currently obsessed with: EFT, Tapping with Brad Yates and Margaret Lynch

2. Today I am: sad and out of sorts because I rescued a cat and brought it to the SPCA and it passed all of its health tests and then it was neutered for adoption and it got a cat cold the day after surgery. Nonetheless and brought it home on the foster-me-first program (it remains the property of the SPCA) and over the last 5 days it has gotten worse and I had to bring it back to the SPCA because I couldn't give it the medicine it needed to get better, subcutaneous injections, pills and liquid medicine. Not to mention its adverse reaction to the pills, it's all too much (emotionally) for me. I feel very responsible right now, and sad.

3. The age I am is: 45 and the age I feel is: 25!!!!

4. My favorite place is: In the power of intention

5. Something I have been procrastinating is: Doing my taxes...

6. The last thing I purchased was: lunch at Tim Horton's; a chicken snacker, a cruller and a double double.

7. The thing I love most about my home is: the burnt orange curtains in the living room. They make me feel warm and loved, I know it is very strange.

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Tag you're it!

The Secret - 30 days of it! (Started March 7 2011)

This is the 3rd day that I have watched the movie The Secret. I decided that I would watch it everyday for 30 days and see what happens.

It's concepts are some I have never heard of or even considered (well especially if I've never heard of them) but I am open minded enough to consider what they talk about.

I find that there is a lot of humor in this movie.  My favorite line is when Bob Proctor talks about electricity and he says "I know you can cook a man's dinner with electricity, but you can also cook the man". That's too funny!
There are other gems in there as well.

All I know is that my life isn't where it could be and I hold the power to change it, no one else.

Just me.

Language of the Soul with Robert Smith

OMG!

I just finished watching the 6 videos that make up a lecture that Robert Smith has on Youtube called the Language of the Soul. There is one exercise that he has us do and I picked a particular memory I have of my mother and although I've always knows I had that memory, I've never allowed myself to really feel it because of the terror of the moment. But I let myself go back there and feel it so that I could let it go. Then he asks to go to a happy memory, and I chose the moment my son was born and they placed him on my chest, in the delivery room I remember shouting "It's a boy! It's a boy!" and my hands went up to my chest as it did 25 years ago and hold this little baby and I'm crying tears of joy.
But what I found amazing was that in the memory, I held out my baby to my mother and introduced her to her new grandson and I was laughing and crying with her. What's amazing is that her and I were 1500 miles apart when my son was born.
Then Robert says to go back to the bad memory to see how strong it still was and I am there as the adult I am now looking at what is about to happen to the 7 year old me and I called out to my mother "Mom, it's ok mom,  come here!" I see her turn around and I take her in my arms and tell her I forgive her, and she starts to cry and I am sobbing. And in this version, the 7 year old me is spared the terror.
When I took my mother in my arms I felt all the rage and  frustration and fear that she felt at that moment and I saw how her own mother had traumatized her. My mother loved me with the same amount of love that her mother loved her and probably how her mother's mother loved her daugther.

I don't feel terrorized anymore.

What the picture of the tree signifies to me

I came across this picture on my page in the public domain (no copyright infringements I hope **) and it reminded me of me.

I had an epiphany years earlier that I was like an acorn, yearning to break free but not knowing how or even if it was possible. The pressure to break free was so intense that it lead me to therapy. One day, I realized that I was that acorn and that I had started to germinate and I was becoming an oak tree.

Seeing the picture of the naked oak tree (vulnerable) behind the oak tree (being shielded) by leaves covering its branches is what I feel like I have become. The leaves represent my continued evolution of self and the many leaves represent the many facets of who I am.

Like the acorn I once was, I am now a mighty oak which renews itself constantly and offers comfort (strength) to those that seek it.

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** if this is your picture, please let me know and I will add the acknowledgment and link back to you. Thank you now for allowing me to find it.

I am declaring to the Universe my intentions

So, I am declaring here, today, that I have an intention. According to the law of attraction (LOA), I am stating what I want manifested in my life and that is being an EFT coach.

I have believed for many years that I have had a higher calling, but I didn't know what it was. All I know was that it involved speaking to groups of people. But because I had zero self esteem, self worth and self confidence, I always dismissed that vision as not for me. [Also, many years ago, I attended a church for a while with a friend, and there was a man there who the congregation believed was a seer. I didn't know this about him as I was new. One day, after service, my friend and I gathered with a smaller group and went for brunch. I was extremely shy and I didn't speak or make eye contact with anyone at the table. Out of nowhere, this man turns to me and says "I see you talking and people weep at your knowledge". People became extremely excited and started congratulating me. I was quite upset at the explosion of attention and I was petrified at what this man said to me. He didn't look at me the rest of the brunch and I never went back.]

These last few days, and weeks, I feel that I have been led by breadcrumbs of visions, little itty-bitty pieces of visions that have rung true with me every step of the way. These visions are so real that when I have them, I can feel myself vibrating healthy energy and I can taste and smell where I am, on a stage, in front of a podium.

I remember telling my therapist one day that I had had these visions for years where I saw myself talking to people but that I didn't know about what. All I knew for sure, as sure as I breathe, was that it had to do with my life experiences and healing. The pull was so strong that it made me cry out of frustration. Like being on a deserted island, hungry and alone, and just off to the distance I could see people on another island, living life and happy, but I couldn't figure out how to get over there. It was too far to swim and there were sharks in the water, no wood to build a raft.

I know this truth about me as sure as I know the sun will rise tomorrow. My calling in life is to help others out of despair and into a life that they were intended to live. And EFT will do that.

So, Universe, here is my intention! And in following the LOA, I am stating what I want as though I already have it. I AM an EFT coach and a healer. I AM earning the money that I have always wanted to earn but felt too ashamed to ask for. I AM attracting the people that need to be healed.

Like the breadcrumbs that lead me to EFT, so are those seeking healing attracted to me.

This is my universal declaration of love for myself.

En theos, so be it.

Before and after, and before

Here's something to wrap the brain around.

Can a moment, situation or time be two things at once?

I think it can, and it can be more than 2 things at once.

Here's what I mean.

Today, this very moment is both a before and an after, or an after and a before.

One year ago, I started to look for a house to buy. One year ago today, is the before of my current situation. It is also the after of that same situation. Now, today is both a before of what will be one year to the day and it is an after of what will be in one year.

Here's another way to explain it.
A wanna be body builder takes a picture of himself today to compare. That picture is the before right? It is also the after picture of himself after he made the decision to change his life. Now if this same bodybuilder takes a new picture every month until his goal, those pictures are both before and after pictures - simultaneously.

Every moment is both a before and an after of this moment in time. Cool huh? These moments are used to measure progress (or set backs depending which way you are focusing)and every moment can be the moment that changes our lives. Moment by moment.

Before and after.

After and before.

I have an emotional cold...

I've been on an emotional high all week and this morning I feel like a freight train ran me over but it's not a (physical) cold, I think it's an emotional one.

So, since being kind to myself is now part of my vocabulary, I am taking the day off. In the past I would have dragged myself in, been miserable all day and wished I had just stayed home. Well, since I have sick days or personal days or whatever this day will be entered in my time sheet - accumulated, I AM being nice to myself.

I am playing hooky! I am having a one day vacation! I (my body) is calling in "not available" today!

I'm not going to worry or feel bad or guilty as I am just going to let this day be what it is going to be.

A ME Day!

Some interesting stuff has happened since I started tapping...

It's been a full week now that I have started using tapping or EFT.

First, my reaction to the Love Your Body (weight-loss ?) video and how it affected me. I cleared some truths (that I didn't even know were there) at such a deep level that in the past it would have taken me years to dig through. Yes - years. The depth that I accessed in that one session has stayed with me since. It continues to resonate even now. My view of food has shifted. My view of my self has shifted. My view of my physical body has shifted. And I still have this sense of calm about me. I feel happier at a deeper level. In the past, I had been able to touch this depth only with the help of marijuana. It would drop me from the present into the feelings by bypassing the fear of reliving the memory. Tapping kept me in the present (where it is safe) and let the emotions flow forward without causing me to be overwhelmed by the process. (I can't verbalize this any differently).

When I explained this to me therapist yesterday, he explained it as an alignment of planets, the physical, emotional and spiritual planes aligning to provide insight and truth and healing. Pot used to drop me into emotion and never lasted past the initial experience and perhaps the next day or two.

The effects of tapping is still with me now.

I used it to stay calm and centered at work. To overcome cravings to binge eat on sweets. I even used it to lessen the pain in my neck.

It works on everything, even attracting money (which I am currently working on to bringing into my life).

I start my day with a tapping session or two, I'll do a discreet tapping at work to boost the morning session if need be and I'll do another at night, plus I listen to audios of EFT/Tapping masters.

This is the gift I am giving myself. A renewed life energy, mental energy and spiritual.

I feel so contented at this moment that I want the world to share in this amazing experience.

The Red Room - 2011 Tapping World Summit

The Red Room - 2011 Tapping World Summit

I'm listening to Margaret Lynch. She is very good at tapping on money issues, getting rid of negative money issues that block money from getting to us and on how to attract more of it to us. Money is energy like everything else.

And boy do I have some sick issues about money! Which I am working on clearing.

Rome wasn't built in a day!

Started this morning with tapping for energy

This morning, I tapped along to another of Brad Yates tapping videos called "I'm Too Tired".

My whole day was good, although there was a time when I had nothing to do so I kept yawning. But what surprised me the most was how "not" tired I was on the bus coming home. Usually, I feel drained and anxious to get home and get into my pjs, but today I kept marveling that I wasn't drained and when I got home I felt like I could have gone out to meet friends or something similar, which I haven't done in so long I can't remember. And if I did have to go somewhere after work for something, I wasn't happy about it and worried myself into resenting having to go somewhere. Which explains why I haven't dated in sooooo long.

So, another day of calm serenity... and mental energy which is a strange feeling...

Calm and confident all day

I got up at 6:10 am this morning so I could do an EFT tapping video. I decided that one way I was going to treat myself differently was by getting up 10 minutes earlier than I usually do to do at least one tapping video.
I did the Love Your Body (weight-loss ?) again as I liked it a lot and decided I could use a boost.

I felt great afterward and went off to work as usual.

I wasn't filled with my usual anxieties about not fitting in, and feeling stupid amongst the technical analysts, my usual state of being there. Then, I had an interaction with a colleague and I could see she got upset about something I said, which wasn't negative but she took it as such, and she got all twisted and I stayed neutral because I knew as soon as I asked my question that she took it in the usual negative way that she takes all questions. The interesting thing is that because I knew my question was just a question and she took it as a judgment, I let her be who she is and I was able to not get sucked into her stuff.
The next time I interacted with her again, I could tell she was still red in the face about it, but I kept being neutral with her and she soon changed her tune.

Another interesting thing when I sat at my desk to do other work and was replaying the situation back over, I had no emotional attachment to it.

That floored me!!! Normally I would have replayed it over and over and defended this or that, but there was nothing. No emotional anything, it was as though I had thought of a paper bag and what it meant to me. Nothing. Neutral.

I was able to maintain a sense of calm and serenity all day. And then when I went to my doctors appointment, I was able to interact with this doctor who I had never been to as thought I knew him. Again, I felt calm, confident and serene.

How cool is that?!

Truths become evident

Ever hear something that clicks within as a truth that you knew about yourself but didn't know you knew it until you heard it?

And then the chain of knowledge unravels and you realize that the truth goes back years if not decades?

Well, when I tapped along with Brad Yates and his tapping video Love Your Body (weight-loss ?), as I repeated the words he spoke, I became intimately aware that what I was saying was true and I had been saying these things to myself for years and believed them without even knowing I knew them or were saying them to myself.

That is what being on auto-pilot is all about. The truths we believe about ourselves
runs in the background like white noise and we don't even notice it anymore until someone points it out to us.

I've been following a trail of breadcrumbs and it lead me to EFT. What an amazing gift to myself and others.

Here's an example of calmness manifesting itself in my life today. I went to the grocery store and as I was leaving a woman walked out in front of me and my cart, stopped and turned around. Then walked and then stopped and turned around again. Inside my head I'm saying to her Jeez lady, make up your freaken' mind. Then she turns to me and asks me which way to the pharmacy, she looked a little sheepish. I told her it was straight ahead and we exchanged smiles (and eye contact). And I felt calm and centered. In the past, someone like her would have caused great anxiety with me probably pushing passed her with my cart and probably brushing her with it, just to make my point. Point being that I am so important that she is irritating me, the be all and end all, the nerve! And then I would have driven home irritated and sped all the way and then grumbled as I carried in my purchase and eaten more than I needed to and then felt even worse.

Calmness manifested itself in my life today. What will you allow to manifest in your life today?

Using EFT to manifest what you want

I came across EFT (emotional freedom techniques) a few days ago in the internet and YouTube. There are many really good videos on it and there is an entire movement building up strength in using EFT for just about everything.
EFT was first used successfully to address PTSD issues, rape, war and other traumatic events in peoples lives.

Why couldn't it be used on other issues like anxieties, stress and issues that keep us blocked or locked in to what makes us miserable.

Basically, EFT taps on meridian points on the body, much like acupuncture (but there are no needles involved) and it helps to release the blocking energy.

There's alot on the internet about EFT gurus, Gary Craig, Bruce Lipton, Dr Mercola, Bob Proctor, and the list goes on and on. There's a lot on good info out there. There are free e-books and online seminars, etc.

But I learn best watching and doing it. I can read about it but I am a visual learner, that's just how I'm built.

On YouTube there are some great practitioners of EFT and they offer free videos. There's Margaret Lynch, there's EFTMagic, Robert Smith, Valerie (search eft valerie) and she has a 30 day challenge and so on. All good so far, but I just discovered  Brad Yates (channel EFTWizard) and I had such a visceral reaction to the video Love Your Body (weight-loss ?) that I had to share it.



My issues aren't about being overweight, my issues are about self acceptance and self love and giving myself permission to be OK just as I am and not putting it off until some magic number in the future. But right now.

Today I manifested truth in my life, what will it manifest in you?

Update to post of December 4th 2010 titled Project M

I had decided since the original post dated December 4th 2010 that the M would stand for mental health as that was my focus, but have now decided that it will stand for Manifestation.
That is what I am wanting to focus on now, manifesting the life I want and deserve to live. Manifesting the life I want will, by default, bring about mental health and take me farther away from mental illness. Just like any other illness, the longer we do the right things in recovery, the farther away we get from the illness and its possible  relapses.
One day at a time, one manifestation at a time, we get closer to health one day at a time, one manifestation at a time.

Me, Myself and Manifestation.  Project Manifestation Now.

Does something exist if we don't beleive in it?

Here's some interesting questions to ponder.

Does God exist if people don't believe in him?

Does he not exist even if people believe he does?

Will prayer work on someone who doesn't believe in its power?

Will the power of EFT (Emotional Freedom Techniques) work even if you don't believe in it?

Does our mind hold enough power to block manifestations of "happiness" just because we have a deep seated belief that we really don't believe we deserve to be "happy" (Happiness being whatever we feel would make us happy ie: money, career, relationships, weight-loss, etc...)

I watched a video yesterday by Bruce Lipton and he explains the power of the mind like no one else (http://www.2011tappingworldsummit.com/VideoSeries/?page_id=60 and click the Bruce Lipton tab if it doesn't open on his page) (and let me say as well that I am not advocating this site as the interview he gives here is also available on YouTube but it's all chopped up and not complete).
He talks about the programming that runs our lives at a subconscious level and how the subconscious is a million times stronger than the conscious mind which is usually not in the present as it thinks of future times when we will be happy or doing something that will make us happy. We run on auto pilot with old and outdated programming, (it's an eye opener!) and we wonder why we aren't happy.
But we can change the programming and live better lives.

I've been researching EFT these past few days and I've tried some of the tapping sessions and I've hit some emotional points and was quite surprised at what I discovered.

So, even though I am still skeptical that EFT works, does it work in spite of a persons belief?