I bought the 6 month tapping into wealth program by Margaret Lynch, and today I listened to week 2. The exercise was identifying financial trauma, I listed the biggest one I had. My ex-husband not paying his child support for more than 12 years. I had to chase him down, sneakily find out from my son if he was working and where so I could notify the family responsibility office of where he was, since they were back logged with dead beat parents, it would take them a year to find him and by then he would be long gone.
A lot of my anger about money then was that he was greedy and vengeful and hurt his child by withholding money meant to help raise his child. So for 12 years, my anger and rage kept me going. Never giving up on finding him and getting the money was due his child. During those years, I felt very stressed about money and where it would come from and I made some stupid decisions to try to make more money and ended up losing the money in MLM, pyramid and other get-rich-quick programs out there.
As I was tapping along to this protocol that Margaret was speaking, I got upset even though I thought I had let it go, but I also started to see him in a different light. I started to see as a small, petty, powerless man that was only reacting to having his child moved out of the province and his access gone. His only way to maintain some control in an otherwise powerless situation was to withhold money and lash out at me.
So, as I tapped, I started to see him as a fragile human being and I started to acknowledge his humanness and the anger started to dissipate.
Wonderful stuff this tapping!
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