So what happened??

I went to a Success Master Mind group tonight,

I went with an open mind and eagerly did the exercises with all the blunt honesty that I could muster - after all, all I had to loose was previous beliefs right?

One exercise had us identify what we want in life from 7 different categories. I listed all of mine as I had been working on this for 6 weeks. And I'm feeling great, spiritual, and positive.

I was gung-ho until the instructor started reading from the Tao, and I got very upset.

He's reading that the ego is what wants material things and that to have true happiness we must put ourselves last and live for the service of others and all we need will be given us, and that the ego is never satisfied and wants more and more.

I started to challenge that and as people started to try to quiet me down, instructor included, I was getting more and more mad that they were saying I was one thing when I knew in my heart that I wasn't that way.

One guy actually told me that anger serves no purpose but to injure the person who feels it and I told him "sure if you live in it all the time, but anger serves as a catapult and moves people into action. Anger is step up the chain of emotions from depression, rage and spurs people into frustration and hope and eventually happiness and joy." He didn't like that.

So, I let it go eventually and decided that I will not focus on that but rather on the peaceful and spiritual feelings I do feel when I am asking and knowing the Universe is delivering.

I will not be going back as the focus of the group is not to spur success but to get people to believe in upsetting conflicting beliefs.

I spoke with a few ladies after the group and many wanted to comfort me because I was (so) angry, but what they didn't know is that I released the anger right after I decided that I didn't like feeling it and no longer needed external soothing. I had it all along. I manifested my own soothing and embraced the anger within once I acknowledged it.
And I also am quite observing that the mood of that group is not one of manifesting success but to stir up controversy, which is not where I want to spend my energy.

So, now what? What is my next adventure? Come on world, I'm ready for another lesson. I'm strong enough to take it.

Whatcha got!?