Been listening to Robert Smith, again

I started listening to Robert Smith again yesterday, I've decided that I am going to buy one of his training programs. His latest videos on YouTube are more insightful and current, I like them more than the earliest ones, but they're all good material.

It's interesting that I have come back to where I started - EFT.

I feel drawn to EFT as a why to help others.

Gandhi said "To find yourself, lose yourself in the service of others".

So true.

Having fun today

Today is a day just for fun. After spending three days listening to motivational this and motivational that, I am plumb tuckered out and need a play day.

So this is it!

Going back to mend hurts

After spending the day listening to Burt Goldman's Quantum Jump audios and doing the visualizations, I did something that may seem pretty strange but, if time is a loop, forward and backward and has no end or no start, why couldn't I go back to a time in my life and offer healing at the point of trauma?

I had heard of a kind of healing, Reiki I think it was, which states that one can send back healing to a specific time, and also, Robert Smith (YouTube's HealingMagic channel) does a healing EFT where he gets the person to send back in time, healing to a trauma.

My thinking when I did this was to lessen the trauma of the 13 year old I once was and to tell her that despite what was about to happen, it was not her fault and that people were going to use it to hurt her and punish her, but that she was still loved, and not damaged and that I would be there for her throughout the ordeal.

What was very strange, is I remember, back then, a voice telling me to just let it happen, not fight it and I would be ok after. I started to cry as I felt that I (in the now)  had been there that night, I held her hand and had her focus on me, and I told her exactly what I remember hearing at 13 years old, 32 years ago (but forgot) - isn't that just amazing?

I will see, over the next while, if "stuff" starts to change.

Change one thing and everything changes - right?

Incredible visualizations!

I've never been good at meditating, my mind always goes off - maybe it's ADD or something (boredom perhaps) but I was able to hold the meditation of each of the ones on Quantum Jumping, I even found that they weren't long enough.

I had great experiences and results from them.

I know when I started reading the info on the site I was thinking "parallel universes" - right!

But I kept listening and he describes it as a kind of controlled daydreaming where a person enters their imagination and converses with another self that already has the skill, or outcome that they want in the current reality. I felt completely in control (in the now) when I went to these other places and spoke with another version of me who was already successful, abundant, and living the life I want for myself. It actually did not feel weird at all.

I just felt relaxed and open minded during the process and observed what has already taken place in another version of me.

I like this kind of visualization as I am the one creating the reality that I am looking at and ultimately creating.

Mike Dooley says "focus on the end result", this kind of visualization is all about the end result. Just don't go to an alternate reality where you are homeless! :)  

Quantum jumping.

Ever hear of Burt Goldman?

I didn't until a few days ago, when the link to his page www.quantumjumping.com kept popping up nearly on every video on YouTube. I finally clicked on it have spent the better part of the day reading his site, watching his videos and finally downloading his program.

I started listening to the program and  participated in my first jump. The concept is based on unlimited parallel universes where we exist in any level or degree from our current reality and that we can access the energy of that doppleganger and bring it back to our current reality. 

I went to a place where I (the other me) am happy, successful and not looking worse for wear (based on the life I've had), I looked content and I was living in a nice place surrounded by green lawns, etc.

It felt real enough, the smell of the grass and the smell of the nearby water, not to mention the breeze I felt as I walked around.

Sound crazy? No, just a type of alpha meditation / visualization. It felt great. I felt happy. I even felt wealthy.

The Water Crystals of Masaru Emoto

I watched a documentary yesterday called "What the bleep do we know" and it is about quantum psychics and alternate universes and thought control and such, and I was intrigued by an experiment by a Japanese scientist Masaru Emoto that he conducted with drops of water and how our thoughts can affect how water freezes.
One line in the movie (spoken by Quark actor Zimmerman) resonated with me "If our thoughts can do that to water, imagine what our thoughts do to our bodies". Indeed!

http://www.unitedearth.com.au/watercrystals.html

Love Energy Source - Music by Scott Raposa

Another beautiful song by amazing composer Scott Raposa that gives me chills, especially when listened to with stereo headphones.

I was moved to add pictures to this song as well.  Enjoy!

Vibrational Beings - Music by Scott Raposa

After I got the CD from Scott Raposa, I felt that I needed to put pictures to a song or two. I listen to the music everyday, sometimes twice or more. It moves me, uplifts me and gets me in the vortex! (LOL)

Here is one of those videos I put together to the song Vibrational Beings.

A small blissful pleasure

Crema coffee!

Yep.

But what does that have to do with manifesting the life I want - you say.

I discovered Crema coffee last year at a friends house. It is D-E-L-I-C-I-O-U-S-! She had a Tassimo machine and when I went to visit I always asked for a Crema. I eventually bought my own Tassimo machine and I get to have a Crema anytime I want.

It is a flavourful, creamy capped coffee that makes me feel blissful as I drink it. I look forward to it all day, I save it for coming home rather than the morning.

It is becoming a ritual that I look forward to to put the cherry on my day. It is manifesting what I want in life.  The key words here are: what I want.

No other coffee gives me what this Crema coffee does, bliss!

This is the machine I bought for myself.

The "The Secret" challenge

I almost forgot to add an update on the 30 day challenge of watching The Secret everyday.
It has launched me in new directions that have left me in absolute awe that I can hardly believe it!

From watching that movie, I found Ester Hicks and the Teachings of Abraham, I found Mike Dooley and the Notes From The Universe, Scott Raposa and his wonderful music - just to name a few.

Most importantly, I found ME again, and in ways that I didn't know I was lacking. These realizations are coming upon me like great waves of emotions and healing and the absolute gratitude and appreciation I am experiencing is overwhelmingly mind-blowing.

I have tremendous hope again, I have incredible compassion, not just for others but for me as well.

My journey has been long and winding and almost backtracking at times, but these teachings I have come upon over the last 6 weeks or so have taken me by storm and surprise and shock and awe and amazement and joy and wonderment and  have caused me to grow in ways that I didn't know were capable.

But most importantly, I found forgiveness. For me, others and for life.

I am a wonderful creation and I know it now!

Woohoo!   

Notes From the Universe - Mike Dooley

Wow!

I started reading the book at Starbuck's yesterday afternoon and I had to stop reading it. I was getting all emotional.

When I got home, I started to read it again and I was bawling my eyes out form gratitude and awe that every page I turned to was exactly what I needed to read and had an answer of what I was looking for.

How does that happen? LAW OF ATTRACTION! That's how. I have found that when I have a question or I am confused about, I start to get answers from the unlikeliest places.

That is what is so amazing.

Aaaahhhh.

Thank you Universe.

Grateful to tears!

I was coming home from doing groceries and as I was coming up the street, I saw a neighbour walking his dog. I honked and waved, he waved back. I was thinking that just one year ago, that would have been unheard of.
A year ago I was just starting to come out of a decade long illness and I was beat up and tired and lifeless.

When I moved in one year ago, he was the first neighbour that said hello and has consistently been neighbourly. I love his mastiff dog and whenever I am outside and they are there, I stop to talk and pet this big teddy bear that looks like she could rip out your throat (appearances can be deceiving).

So as I waved and smiled at the acknowledgment of how far I have come in one year and in learning about appreciation and gratitude when I found LOA, I got quite emotional and teary eyed and had to acknowledge just how happy I was in that moment and how happy overall I have been over the last 6 weeks or so.

I never thought I would ever thank God for anything, and here I am appreciating everything that has come into my life thus far (even the bad stuff).

I love how I feel when I am grateful and appreciative. It is better than any high I ever got on pot! And I am not exaggerating. This high is real and long lasting and caused by me and Source.

Life really is a miracle!

Activating what we think

I saw the best example of activating thoughts into action today and I had to share it here.

I have a colleague, she is extremely negative and very stressed. She spends her days loudly complaining and saying things like "if it can go wrong, it will go wrong for me" and "I knew this was going to go wrong, everything goes wrong for me".

I hear this all day, everyday. And usually I have to force myself to ignore her or leave the area just to clear my energy. But today, as she was repeating this mantra, I had this very neutral thought that she attracts into her life exactly what she doesn't want, and then rewards it when it shows up by constantly stroking it.

I said to her as I was leaving for the day and she wanted to vent her frustration "I have to be honest with you, I do not envy you one iota, all that stress. I hope you find a way."
And then I wished her well at her meeting first thing tomorrow and her reply was "I doubt this meeting will be a good one, they never are".

And with an active calling to that end result, I can see why she thinks that way.

So what happened??

I went to a Success Master Mind group tonight,

I went with an open mind and eagerly did the exercises with all the blunt honesty that I could muster - after all, all I had to loose was previous beliefs right?

One exercise had us identify what we want in life from 7 different categories. I listed all of mine as I had been working on this for 6 weeks. And I'm feeling great, spiritual, and positive.

I was gung-ho until the instructor started reading from the Tao, and I got very upset.

He's reading that the ego is what wants material things and that to have true happiness we must put ourselves last and live for the service of others and all we need will be given us, and that the ego is never satisfied and wants more and more.

I started to challenge that and as people started to try to quiet me down, instructor included, I was getting more and more mad that they were saying I was one thing when I knew in my heart that I wasn't that way.

One guy actually told me that anger serves no purpose but to injure the person who feels it and I told him "sure if you live in it all the time, but anger serves as a catapult and moves people into action. Anger is step up the chain of emotions from depression, rage and spurs people into frustration and hope and eventually happiness and joy." He didn't like that.

So, I let it go eventually and decided that I will not focus on that but rather on the peaceful and spiritual feelings I do feel when I am asking and knowing the Universe is delivering.

I will not be going back as the focus of the group is not to spur success but to get people to believe in upsetting conflicting beliefs.

I spoke with a few ladies after the group and many wanted to comfort me because I was (so) angry, but what they didn't know is that I released the anger right after I decided that I didn't like feeling it and no longer needed external soothing. I had it all along. I manifested my own soothing and embraced the anger within once I acknowledged it.
And I also am quite observing that the mood of that group is not one of manifesting success but to stir up controversy, which is not where I want to spend my energy.

So, now what? What is my next adventure? Come on world, I'm ready for another lesson. I'm strong enough to take it.

Whatcha got!?

What inspirational music!!!!

I first came across the music of Scott Raposa when I first stumbled on this YouTube video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7je1ykX9Op4

and then I went to Scott's site and listened to the tracks for the LOA Directly from Source album and then I ordered it!

I just got it and put it into my laptop and WOW! what an album! Ester Hicks' voice, coupled with this unique blend of sounds and music is hypnotic, energizing and (dare I say) sensual at times! But very INSPIRATIONAL!!! I've made a copy for my MP3 player, I have a copy on my laptop and I keep the CD in the car.

You gotta get this album!

I knew eventually I'd do it!

In order to keep attracting good into one's life, one has to think good thoughts and have good feelings the majority of the time.

But, when people around you aren't doing that and are rather negative and subconsciously sucking all of the energy out of you, what do you do?

Well, I've been dealing with that very "contrast**"

Following the words of Abraham-Hicks, "reach for a better feeling thought". Uh-huh.

Since I started living the law of attraction, while at work, that has been a HUGE contrast for me, listening to (or just being around) this particular person sucks the living energy right out and I feel really bad.
So, also according to Abraham-Hicks and other LOA teachers, my feeling bad is me allowing myself to feel bad by not allowing good feelings. Following me so far?

All last week, this person has been away on course so I wasn't exposed for 8 hours a day as I usually am, and I must have built up my "allowing" muscle, because today, when it started to get negative, I closed my eyes, gathered all the "appreciation" for this person I could and said internally "I really appreciate this persons attention to detail" and I listened to an upbeat and inspirational bit of music and TADAH! I allowed myself to feel good despite what was going on around me.

Now, I realize that this might sound like a tiny step, just ignore and tune out - right? wrong, I let this person be who they are and I let myself feel appreciation rather than annoyance - that is the HUGE shift I'm talking about.

Since I decided to live LOA rather than just "feel" it (there is a difference), I feel more and more in the abundance I am creating. After all, today is the manifestation of yesterday.  


"every failure brings with it the seed of an equivalent advantage" Napoleon Hill - TAGR
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** We do not have problems, we have contrast.

I did what would have been the impossible, once upon a time!!!

Yep!

I did today what would have sent me into a major panic attack, not too long ago.

I hosted a public event that had me conversing with about 50 people and although my previous self was actually trying to convince me to do something else instead, I went anyway and walked through the fear and anxiety and insecurity to get closer to my ultimate goal - public speaking.

And I survived! phew!

But most importantly, I had fun.  Yes, actual bonafide fun.

Amazing right?

Woohoo!

Started working on my Big Wonderful Book of Dreams, Desires and Manifestations

I was listening to Mike Dooley (author of Notes From The Universe) and he talks about how he has used manifestation books to visualize what he wants, and although he is famous and has the life he wants, he still has an active book.

So I went out and got ink for the printer, a blank book with a nice cover and a glue stick, and started printing what I want to attract in my life, all the while listening to Abraham-Hicks' CD In The Vortex.

I will review the book daily as Mike does, and add to it as I think of other wonderful things I want to attract.

My dogs are in there, my house, my cottage, my car, my trips to other countries, and soon I'll add my career and relationships.

It felt good when I was adding things to it and imagining having them. Like Mike says "Focus on the end results and let the Universe figure out how to make it happen".

Ok, then! On we go!

Am I doing this right?

It seems to me that after I have a deep connection experience to my Source, the next day or so I feel drained and almost blah, neutral, exhausted and rested.

Which leads me to ask - Am I doing this right?

Science of Getting Rich and Law of Attraction

I've been listening to the Science of Getting Rich in audio format and listening to Abraham-Hicks and now Mike Dooley and they all say the same thing.

What I find amazing is that the Science of getting rich was written so many year ago my a man long dead and the message is the same.
Think positive thoughts.
Visualize what you want.
Get in line with it.
And don't focus on your current situation.

And Source/Divine/God will provide for you.

What I don't get however, is if this information has been around for many decades (10 or more) why is this concept still considered new age and touchy-feely woo-woo stuff?

There are so many similarities when I compare all three, so much so that all three are versions of each other, it's just the language is slightly different.

Isn't it amazing?

Mike Dooley and your EGS

OMG!!!! I am watching a talk Mike Dooley gave as part of his book tour (feb/11) and he just said something that just blew my mind!!!

First, let me say that Mike is a believer of visualizing the end result as the Universe will  figure out how to get you there.

Ok, now he is talking about how cars nowadays have GPS installed and when you get in your car, you tell it your end result and it figures everything else for you. It'll calculate the speed, direction, any detours ahead, etc. You just need to get behind the wheel and tell it where you want to be and it'll get you there.

That just hit me, like the EGS (emotional guidance system) that Abraham-Hicks talks about, it is your GPS for life and your desires.

Isn't that amazing!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AWC4F-3MEJM&feature=related start here and watch all 4 parts.

Still have lots more shifting to do....

It seems that when I have shifts in thinking, feeling, vibration (et al), I get to feeling blah (neutral) and think that this is it for me. I have incredible shifts for a few days in a row, I'll reach deep down and pull out truth and healing and think, there can't be anymore and feel rather blah... This happened this last weekend. All week prior, I had been shifting and healing and adjusting and here comes the weekend and I feel emotionally drained and feel that there couldn't be anymore to reach.

Ha! Yesterday, I am listening to Abraham-Hicks and not feeling the vibration, and I am following the videos appearing on the right in Youtube and I click on one and it starts to pull at my heart, and then another and I'm bawling my eyes out and I'm shifting all over the place. And in my mind I'm asking a question and that gets answered later in the video or in the next video. It felt as though I was being led along video after video and I'm releasing more and more resistance.

I remember an earlier video that Abraham-Hicks talks about crying and how it is mostly a release of resistance and an adjustment of vibration as resistance is being released. That was good to hear as I was starting to wonder what exactly was going on with me as I am releasing a lot of  tears that are mixed with laughter and joy and appreciation and gratitude.  It's like I have this question that I am not fully aware that I have and then -WHAM!- an answer is given to me and I am so grateful to be given this information and end up so excited thanking Source for bestowing on me this very knowledge.

I hope I never run out of shift!

April 7th will be 30 days since The Secret changed everything!

When I started doing the The Secret challenge, I knew that something would change but I didn't know to what extent.  I couldn't wait another 5 days for an update.

One of the LOA believers that I discovered is Abraham-Hicks.  Initially, her speaking in terms of "We" rather than "I" was a little off I thought, but after a few times of watching the movie, and liking what she was saying, I looked her up on the internet. When I initially discovered that she channels a group of formless energy known as Abraham, I thought it was a little weird.  But because what she says is not aggressive and she does not pontificate, I felt safe to listen more. I started to watch clips on youtube and then I downloaded the meditation CD into the Vortex. I listen to it at work and I have had moments of intense resonance. Listening to her words on youtube and on her site, I have had more moments of resonance. 

Although I initially found her through EFT, I think now that if I hadn't had small, non threatening shifts by using EFT, I would not have been open enough to allow the teachings of Abraham-Hicks.

I have always had a problem with religion, especially the Catholic religion, and anytime something came close to sounding like rules, or sin, or salvation, or judgment, I would run as fast as I could. But these teachings are not religious based, they are not judgmental,  they do not force a doctrine that is impossible to follow and cause people to fear life and all that it offers.

These teachings have caused me to shift in the direction of positive energy and allowed me to find my truth and love it! I am grateful, I am loving, I am in awe and I am eager to see how else I am going to manifest more gratitude and love into my life. 

I know that these teachings can seem rather scary to many, but they are not. There is nothing but love for those who seek the truth.

Resonance

I've been reading alot on LOA (both the Science of Getting Rich and Ask and it is Given) and I've had moments of deep resonance where I feel a truth erupt, one that I always knew but had forgotten that I knew and then a cleansing of the truth followed by a settling of that truth. 

Until last night, I didn't know the word to describe these events that were happening to me, but after listening to Abraham-Hicks yesterday talk to a young man who described what I have been experiencing lately, she called it Resonance and it felt like the truth. Of course, I erupted into emotion and allowed the tears to wash over me and I felt elated and joyful!  To know that I have known something my whole life and be made aware that I knew it feels incredibly like coming home. What amazes me even more is that I have flashes of this knowing going back my whole life and for whatever reason, safety perhaps, I disallowed this knowledge where it has become evident to me now that I have always had this awareness but there is no anger that I had disallowed it or that it was disallowed for me. Just joy that I now have access to it.

When I got home last night, I started watching Youtube videos of talks that Abarham-Hicks has given over the years (as I do most nights) and these words she speaks are profound and enlightening and loving and I get very emotional as they resonate within me. I feel that I am in the presence of my destiny (does that make sense?) and I laugh and cry and give thanks and am grateful all wrapped into one body (and it feels powerful). I am listening to one in particular and as I start to feel the truth resonate, the lights go out and I say out loud to the Source energy "Have you always been with me?"   and I felt profoundly grateful that although I had disallowed my truth from being, I felt grateful that Source had always been there by my side until I could turn to it and allow it again. Even now as I recall this event from last night, I am emotional with gratitude.

Allowing Source to resonate within me has changed me and I am becoming as I allow and I am grateful, humble and  giddy to know that this is available to me and to anyone willing to become and allow and be grateful, humble and giddy.

Source energy is who I am, and I am grateful!

Dr Wayne Dyer rocks!

I subscribe to his twitter account and I had to blog about this one retweet of his "Leave your reputation for others to debate; it has nothing to do with you."  It is similar to another saying "What people think about me is none of my business".

How true that is. To me, that speaks of "no matter how hard I might try to please someone, they will think what they will of me."

People who aren't aware/awake live in their fears and insecurities and will always find a reason to hate/dislike/judge/criticize others because they are in so much pain themselves and they need someone onto whom they can project what they feel. It is not normal to feel these things about oneself so they project thinking that it is the external person making them feel this way, or act that way or think whatever.

What I am learning as I read and listen to Abraham-Hicks and other wonderful awake/aware beings is that wasted energy spent on trying to show others you are not what they believe you are is wasted energy and can never be regained. So let them be where they need to be and keep driving your life forward since you're the one who knows the truth about yourself best.

My inner child is happy!

I stopped at McDonald's before doing a grocery tonight, not because I eat at McD's often, but because it was close and on the way to Loblaws. I ordered what I usually order on my yearly visit there, a cheeseburger happy meal with Mac sauce. 
The toy was a Littlest Petshop toy. I thought it was a kitten, but it was a pink girlie skunk, awww!

So, I get my meal in the little cardboard box, with the arches for handles, and I walk to my table holding my happy meal and I am happy. It feel even more happy when I realize that the little skunk is a bobblehead and I'm tapping the head so it bounces and I apply the little flowers to decorate my little toy.

Even though they forgot to add the Mac sauce, I was eating my happy meal and playing with my  toy and enjoying myself, I felt silly and happy and giddy and in my skin. It didn't matter if others were looking at me, and it didn't matter if they even had a thought about this grown 40 something woman, alone, eating her happy meal and tapping on the little bobble head and beaming!

I felt 10 years old inside and it felt wonderful!