Monday, February 28, 2011

Calm and confident all day

I got up at 6:10 am this morning so I could do an EFT tapping video. I decided that one way I was going to treat myself differently was by getting up 10 minutes earlier than I usually do to do at least one tapping video.
I did the Love Your Body (weight-loss ?) again as I liked it a lot and decided I could use a boost.

I felt great afterward and went off to work as usual.

I wasn't filled with my usual anxieties about not fitting in, and feeling stupid amongst the technical analysts, my usual state of being there. Then, I had an interaction with a colleague and I could see she got upset about something I said, which wasn't negative but she took it as such, and she got all twisted and I stayed neutral because I knew as soon as I asked my question that she took it in the usual negative way that she takes all questions. The interesting thing is that because I knew my question was just a question and she took it as a judgment, I let her be who she is and I was able to not get sucked into her stuff.
The next time I interacted with her again, I could tell she was still red in the face about it, but I kept being neutral with her and she soon changed her tune.

Another interesting thing when I sat at my desk to do other work and was replaying the situation back over, I had no emotional attachment to it.

That floored me!!! Normally I would have replayed it over and over and defended this or that, but there was nothing. No emotional anything, it was as though I had thought of a paper bag and what it meant to me. Nothing. Neutral.

I was able to maintain a sense of calm and serenity all day. And then when I went to my doctors appointment, I was able to interact with this doctor who I had never been to as thought I knew him. Again, I felt calm, confident and serene.

How cool is that?!

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